hate the passage of time the passage of time is my #1 enemy

i've been sitting here, on the writing page, and i've just been.. i don't know, defocusing or something? i cant describe it. i've been blankly staring at the screen for what feels like a hour. i don't actually know how long i stared at it. soon enough the song playing on loop loses all meaning and becomes background noise. i just looked at the date.. how the fuck is it already the 31st. has time really flown by that fast? i don't get it. maybe my life is so boring i feel like time has been speeding up, but it feels like yesterday when i was sighing realizing i have to go to school again. i'm gonna be a junior soon. holy shit...and. i just tuned into the music. what lyrics are these?? i just checked the player its the same song. oh my god my hands are trembling while writing this are the lyrics fucking shifting. why is the song fucking taunting me. i'm changing the song. anyways thats all i have to post today

nothing ever happens in this crapsack city

 i went to the 7/11 on my way home from school today. it was cloudy out and that weird liminal state where it's cold but lukewarm enough you can't really call it cold but not warm either. sometimes i'd catch a bit of sun and it was nice. i went inside and the air was that stale quality that makes you want to cough despite nothing being wrong with it. the pristine lights burned into my retinas for a few seconds after looking at it, and i grabbed a coke and a bag of trolli. i don't know the cashier, but she looked tired, she's probably a lot like me, she probably was waiting for her shift to end so she could go on the internet and have a outlet. we didn't talk to one another, i paid, she bagged it, and i left with a bag with only coca-cola and fucking trolli. i wish my friend wasn't sick right now.

jesus shit

so i decided to become a bit of a one-stop shop or whatever for the drowsytown games search and the reason why is cause for some fucking reason P1LLB0RG just came to our skype groupchat with a bunch of stills. no shit. what the hell????????? i'll work on it more tomorrow it's almost fucking midnight but jesUS. i hope we get footage or something but thats unlikely as balls

HOLY FUCKING SHIT....

i just woke up in a cold sweat over a....dream? nightmare? i don't...know. i was at school and i was leading this classmate of mine and we went into a empty classroom and i had a knife and i stabbed her and slit her throat and choked her somehow and i knew someone was watching and i dragged the body to the auditorium and thinking about it i think the layout was like not even my schools i dont know what school's it was but either way my brain registered it as my school and then some eye bitch or something i can't remember but he/she congratulated me and i for some reason registered it as my childhood friend and then i woke up and like i dont get it id never kill her i dont hate her or anything i dont get it what did that say about me i don't GET IT

general update post!

 sorry for missing two days, i just felt like i needed a short break from posting cause i had...nothing to blog about. my life is so fucking boring.

but anyways i got the pic of the paper lol. sorry about the image quality my phone's shiiiit

yeah anyways uh. ppl keep telling me my last post had my text become fucking purple. which. isn't true. i looked at it myself, i had my friend look at it, there's no purple like. in any of it. lol. anyways i swear i could see some handwriting in there but i can't make it out for the life of me. thanks water damage. is that water damage? whatever. i dreamt that i got nuked again though

thank god its friday

i was checking my locker passing period today when i noticed something in my locker i didn't see before. it was a piece of paper taped on my locker with.....so, so many eyes drawn on it. it was creepy as fuck. i don't wanna scan it, i should be asleep, but ill try posting it tomorrow. i could feel the eyes watching me. staring strrraight into my soul. i was dumbfounded mostly but also...curious? i just stared at the damn thing for a while. i think i might've lost track of time too, just staring, i only stopped from the bell ringing and my concerned friend shaking me out of it. but there was something there. there is always something there. those eyes belong to something. someone. all of them. all thousand of them. i know it's rude to stare. but it was just a drawing. just a drawing. why was it so familiar then? something about it. i need to look at it further. i ripped it off of the wall and put it in my backpack. i don't know who made it or why they sent it to me. oh well.

I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING!!

soooo i might have left out the extent of my search....the entire reason why i have been having a dip in posting is cause i've been going on a huuuge rabbit hole over those damn flash games. now i know i said i had my own fucked up experiences with the games and called them "creepy" but upon reflection a lot of the shit i remember from it is fairly benign, if not unsettling. i like, probably had a nightmare or smthing and thats why i remember snigglette's game being so fucked up. or maybe im making my skepticism block out my memories you never know. but i do believe the rumors being spread about the games are just...well...rumors! to me nothing about the games felt truly sentimental to my childhood, they were just one-off things i experienced, nothing more...but i'd be damned to say the frenzy about it wasn't a part of internet history. and i love media preservation! every piece of art ever should be available to prying eyes instead of rotting as a draft.

anyways the creator of this old thing is anonymous, which sucks cause i want to credit them, im not that good at writing stories anyways

the pasta goes as follows;

hey... i just wanna start this off by saying that... you don't have to believe anything i say is real.  like any of it. i get it! i'm literally just going up to you and saying "yeah these games are cursed" but the least you can do is hear what i'm saying and THEN come to your own conclusion. okay...so...

i was hanging out with my friends the other day, getting drunk, suddenly trying to start a band spur-of-the-moment, and eventually, finding weird old shitty flash game sites to laugh at. while we were of course stoned, there was this one game that caught my eye suddenly and i decided to make me and some of my friends play it. it was called some shit like "tinkie's math fax" or some stupid shit and high out of my fucking mind i immediately clicked on it. the game was about like some weird looking creepy ass yellow goat-thing who was just making me learn increasingly more and more insane math equations. now heres the thing, i'm pretty good at math, back in high school i did AP for math and aced every single one. that type of stuff fascinates me. to the point where im going to college to become a mathematician. so i knew a lot of stuff, but some of the later half stumped me. it actively broke the fucking basics of math. like there was a symbol in there that i can't even replicate on keyboards it was insane. like, the fucks the square root of pumpkin pie? at the time it could've been chalked up to me being stoned as fuck but it felt like it took forever. like i was in a neverending shitty math game timeloop. my friends said it was a minute. but the weird time shit was the least of my worries about the game. the end was....my memory is foggy as hell fuck...but i remember him looking at me with his stupid mug and smiling. i remember smiling back. i was so dazed and it took my high as fuck friend slapping me awake to have me away from the computer. ever since time's been moving slower than it used to be. i can still feel that stupid fucking goat bitch beckoning to me, telling me he'll give me everything i ever wanted, if i just go into that alleyway. if i just...took the box.

and i kinda want to.

and that was the end of the creepypasta BABY!!!!! i'm not sure what to make of it yet but it's fun i guess. i hope the author's doing well.

playground rumor about a haunted town

theres this girl in my school who recently came in from some small town in michigan and i have some respect for her, even though i....don't really know her lol. she seemed to be super aloof and above all the stupid bullshit my classmates do. they had a lot of rumors about her and her hometown buzzing around. that she was planted by some evil megacorporation and that her town is fucking haunted. like all of it. lmao. she never really took any of it seriously and neither did most of us, of course there were certain weirdos but nobody genuinely believed that.

then she went missing.

it was a couple days back it kinda maybe caused me to stop posting as often, though i wasn't personally affected. she was last seen talking to her friends before biking home. she never came back home. according to the kids who thought she was a psyop she said she felt...eyes on her? fucking weird. i hope she's ok.

please be normal to me

a lot of weird emails have been sent my way recently. i'm gonna answer one out here.

uh....the email is....unknown@gmail.com. it just says...."you should try opening your eyes this time around!"....ok. that's so fucking stupid and weird. and like, do i LOOK like the type of girl who'd be like "what the fuck!! thats scary!! what does rhat mean!!!" no. im not. i know a troll when i see one and honestly im just laughing at their attempt at being scary

idk dude its fucking 11

sometimes i take a sit back and wonder

am i doing good enough? i cant tell anymore. they tell me i have to "try harder". what a joke. it's always try harder do better i'm trying so much i just want to go home i want to go back to my refuge..

sometimes i forget who i actually am online. sometimes i forget who this body belongs to. sometimes i remember and look at the me who i almost was convinced i was.

sometimes i wish i was just text on a screen

sometimes i wonder whats the point

then i see her and remember. 

shiiit sorry for not posting in two days

IM NOT DEAD. ive just been really busy lately and forgot to post! i had to cram for a test and shit -_-.....ive also been busy working on trying to find footage of the game with the other guys and shit, also, i've been working on creating a debut album for me and my friend's band! that's gonna be sick!! but we don't have it down yet lolll.... i'll go back to updating frequently trust

so what was up with the 2012 shit

 ok so i meant to post this yesterday but i forgot to.....sorry.... but remember how everyone thought the world'd end in 2012? that was funny as fuck right? cause we went from like, "oh shit the computers only use 2 numbers for years!" to "ALIENS ARE COMINGGGGGGGG". it's so fucking silly i love it... sometimes i wonder what if the world's end is soon, but that's stupid. and i'd be stupid to genuinely believe that. it's better to just live your life instead of constantly worrying about what could happen. life is not a horror movie its....its one of those stories written by a sad teenage girl. anyways as i was saying that was a harrrddd pivot wasn't it? 

anyways fucking wild right

remember drowsytown games?

i kind of put this off for the longest time, but it's been brought to my attention recently cuz of P1LLB0RG's thread and i just felt like talking about it here. cause oh my god those games were so creepy. of course 8 year old me didn't give much of a fuck about the weird eye and mouth monsters or whatever the fuck pokey was supposed to be. 

i remembered one game i played gave me nightmares though. it was one starring snigglette? remember her? yeah it was a bit weird she was the only one given a game but it was your average dress-up, and then the last prompt came, "snigglette's train is coming! she can't run away like this! you got to help her!" or whatever and i dressed her up and then a cutscene played of her waiting for the train and then she looks around like nervously and then all these purple eyes appear around her and text appeared that said like "leave? you can't ever leave snigglette!" and that's all i remember :P haha that sounds like a hoax lmaooo. i got a screenshot though!!!! its real!!!

 i do wanna revisit it to see if it was that bad but it probably wasn't. i was like 8 after all it can't be that bad! i probably misremembered it. i do hope it gets found though.

a joke creepypasta i just thought up

im so so so sorry.

anyways:

"onecde upon a tiem.......there was a man nown as,,,,,the marderman!! and he had a anxe.....a d he lurks the interbers websites and gets inncoent wbe oestastrians,,,,for beingmmmmm,,,,,interneters......thtas vringe to him ysee,,,,,,,and,,,,,,he has found you!!!!!!!! MAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAH I AM GUOD!!!"

sonic.exe got NOTHING on me. NOTHING

weird dream i had about a part of the local park

while it felt incredibly real, i'm calling it a dream cause...it couldn't be real. plus it'd be really hypocritical since i just made a entire post detracting people who think the killer track is real. i'm not here to make new netlore guys, i swear.

so when i was twelve, i used to go to the park often, and once, when simply walking, i noticed a passageway i never came across before, curious, i went in. it was incredibly overgrown, and i tripped a few times on vines, but eventually i found a old building, i looked around a bit, and opened the door. by god was it a wreck!!! the floorboards creaked and there was a lot of fucking computer monitors too. no keyboard either to use them, i don't even know how i knew they were computer monitors stead of televisions. i thought i heard someone so i got the fuck out of there. i never been there since, and this is kinda the first time i ever spoke about it. i thought about going with a friend before but again, it's not real, so why should i?

may the 4th be with you?

 happy may fourth! i'm not a star wars fan, but you got to respect your elders when it comes to liking media people call "nerdy". like in my case anime. i don't have much to say on the topic though. sorry. my sister's friend is into star wars though so i have THAT. my friend and i are planning on watching it so i won't be on much srry

weird old website i cannot find

 when i was like 12 or something i used stumbleUpon very frequently, whenever i was bored at school or home i would just click it. so i had seen a lot of websites, weird, esoteric, maybe lost, you know the gist. and there's this one that's been stuck in my head, it was so creepy and i want to revisit it but i don't remember the name of it for the life of me. no matter how hard i tried it wasn't there! it's so fucking frustrating. the plot was that the world was ending and some girl who was somehow caught up in it all was going to the apex of the apocalypse and entering the house of a "prophet" or something, the prophet and the girl have a short conversation before the prophet pulls a mallet on the girl, and the girl runs to the kitchen to get a kitchen knife, and in the most final girl move, stabs the prophet, after the prophet drops her mallet (the weapon she was using) the girl turns it on her. i don't remember the rest. i do have a screenshot of it

also a doodle of the girl and the prophet.

the creepy thing is that...it feels...familiar? i don't know, the girl looked like me and the prophet just. reminds me of someone. i don't know who but someone 

anyways yeah it was supaaar creepy. if anyone has any leads lmk!!!!! 

please for the love of god shut up about the killer track

its a creepypasta guys. IF anyone died two weeks after listening to it, it was definitely coincidence. i can't believe i have to even say this. dont you guys have a ounce of common sense? at all??? and before you go "Oh BuT mY fRiEnD lIstEnEd tO iT aNd hE/ShE eXpErIEnCeD ThE sYmPtOms!!1!1!1!1!1!1!" your either lying, they experienced the placebo effect, or something was wrong with your friend, and it's NOT related to the song. i like scary shit dont get me wrong but this shit isn't reaaalllll. please stop flooding every horror forum ever about it. nobody carreeeeessss

welcome to my blog!

 hello! first post on the blog!! huh!!

i'm sure you already know who i am through my introduction but if you don't, hi! im sabie, and this is my own little space on the internet! i guess this is just a log of whatever comes on my mind, whether it be weird shit online, or my exploits in the real world, this is the space where i put it, like a public diary of sorts, haha!