hate the passage of time the passage of time is my #1 enemy

i've been sitting here, on the writing page, and i've just been.. i don't know, defocusing or something? i cant describe it. i've been blankly staring at the screen for what feels like a hour. i don't actually know how long i stared at it. soon enough the song playing on loop loses all meaning and becomes background noise. i just looked at the date.. how the fuck is it already the 31st. has time really flown by that fast? i don't get it. maybe my life is so boring i feel like time has been speeding up, but it feels like yesterday when i was sighing realizing i have to go to school again. i'm gonna be a junior soon. holy shit...and. i just tuned into the music. what lyrics are these?? i just checked the player its the same song. oh my god my hands are trembling while writing this are the lyrics fucking shifting. why is the song fucking taunting me. i'm changing the song. anyways thats all i have to post today