i just came home to a message. some anonymous person said that this is what became of those who "looked too deep". i. i feel sick.
it was someone. a young woman i think. and her skin there was...
there was a bunch of eyes on her skin she looked dead there was blood everywhere it was like it erupted out of her. is that gonna be me? i've gotten to itching myself almost compulsively as of late. are they under my skin? do i have to get them out? no no no i can't peel it off am i fucking insane???
i dont think i remember even writing a lot of these posts. i dont even really know if i'll remember this hahahaha. i look at these and i just ask myself what the fuck was i doing what was i on?
i can't pretend to be a normal person any longer. i just go to school i try to focus on my studies i used to talk to her but i just. i miss her so much i miss ave so much i wish i was better i wish i wasnt a fucking monster i wish i wasnt so selfish. she's an angel. living perfection. but i'm beyond salvation. she keeps calling me. i think it's gotten over a hundred at this point. i can't help but feel bad for her but... she must understand that this is good for her. nobody needs to know me. nobody should know me.
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