sometimes i take a sit back and wonder

am i doing good enough? i cant tell anymore. they tell me i have to "try harder". what a joke. it's always try harder do better i'm trying so much i just want to go home i want to go back to my refuge..

sometimes i forget who i actually am online. sometimes i forget who this body belongs to. sometimes i remember and look at the me who i almost was convinced i was.

sometimes i wish i was just text on a screen

sometimes i wonder whats the point

then i see her and remember.