the musings of someone with way too much free time on her hands

  i just came home to a message. some anonymous person said that this is what became of those who "looked too deep". i. i feel sic...

  i must be a whole new kind of selfish. i know she wants me out to be with her but i just can't do that. she calls me all the time aski...

  they're watching me. i just know they are. i can feel it. a thousand eyes staring right at me. waiting for me to write this. to exist ...

  so. it is may first, which officially means that this blog has been running for a full year. it's funny, isn't it? i reread the fi...

i still miss her. it's like a vital part of me is gone without her. she's like a beam of light to shine on my honestly pathetic life...

it's 4/20 today. i'd make the obvious weed joke but i'm not a fucking stoner lmao. not here to get addicted, y'know? today i...

  i swear i have all these leads and it feels like it's all going nowhere!!! and i know i should try to document them more, that's w...