i forgot to post for 4 days straight

no excuse here lol. i've been spending the past few days really just silently listening to music, posting online, and searching. dead ends after dead fucking ends. if i didn't know better i'd be sure the games didn't exist lmao. i don't really know how to describe it... i guess scatterbrained? but with a ever encroaching sense of paranoia. a feeling that the screen's distracting me, and around the corner, something is watching me, every time i listen to music on these shitty headphones i swear i hear noises coming from outside the song or whatever. i hate nights like these man. i just heard a firework go off. god, i know it was just 4th of july, but they've been doing this since this fucking morning man. like, come on. 

... i swear when the screen gets dark i can see hundreds of eyes on the wall, just... watching me. i'm no better than those losers lying for attention huh? well... i guess it's just that i'm fucking crazy instead. i have to be. i have to be.