i forgot again lol

 in my defense, i have been studying a lot more recently and thus haven't had the time to post more or dedicate more of my life to the site, which sucks ofc (can't help but feel like i'm being punished a little) but yknow. ave's been dragging me along and there's auditions for the school musical coming up. i was super into those back in middle school but now i kind of. don't care anymore for those things. esp performing - i used to be able to brazenly go on stage and belt my heart out but nowadays i have actual shame so i don't even sing at home lol. i still signed up though, i've just been going to school and going home n shit so i decided i needed a change. it was for tech though, i'd rather be caught dead than be on stage. i'll write a post about the website i mentioned last time, but man dude johnny didn't lie that shit is RED.

i forgot to post for like 18 days

yeahhh sorry about that. i've just been really busy with school n stuff and didn't get to do much online. ave isn't helping either. she keeps telling me to forget about the site and just live life but i literally can't yknow? she's kind of my only lifeline though atm so i don't wanna cut her off. i care about her deeply yknow. she's like an angel bringing salvation to me or something... i don't deserve her........ she's been showing me her games collection a lot more recently which i find lovely! she likes the multiplayer ones the most because we can play together with them :) she's so wonderful why does she even bother with someone like me? pretty too. but in a platonic way. i'm not gay. i likeee mennn.